Wake up

do not eat

 

Take        calcium gummies

Think       of sweetness

Chew       artificially sweetened nutrition droplets

Chew       juxtaposition

Check      email, laterally

Check      New York Times news highlights

                      war in Ukraine results in death

                            more death to come

                      politicians’ children priming for political positions

                            modern monarchy

Swallow   artificial sweetness

do not eat

​

Get up

 

Reflect:   I never write the year when I date my page

                 I always forget

                 the nature of time

                 passing

 

Sit down

do not eat

 

Feel        empty

Love       empty

Think     empty, you are empty

                all is empty

                food is empty

                I am empty

​

Do not eat

​

Feel        empty

Love       empty

Think     empty, you are empty

                all is empty

                food is empty

                I am empty

​

Do not eat

​

Feel         empty

Love        empty

Think      empty, you are empty

                all is empty

                food is empty

                I am empty

Do not eat

Do not eat

Do not

eat

​

Eat!

                yes dear yes eat

                fill complete eat, yes

Eat!

                for survival!

                is essential!

                my dear we are filling filling

                oh how safe the feel

                of a full bodied mouth

                so the sound of succulence

                so so

Stop!

                feel the space around your skin?

                feel the gray where touch once lay?

                see the empty in my bed?

                see the filling in my head?

                see my craving, true

                you and your womanly skin

                you and your womanly thin

                you and your womanly sin

                let them sin for you

                let them hold you in place

                so you

                you dainty waif

                you 

                may float away with the day

                safe in his holding

                you my dear

                women exist

                for the sake of holding

                so

                to be held

                be small

                to be small

Do not eat.

                 to be held

Do not eat.

                 food cannot hold you

                 dear

​

So full you bust of a chop

you pile of slop

you waste of this space

you take so much

space, this body of yours

mine, ours, how'd you soil us

so you bore you chore

you'll never learn to turn

this straw into gold

and you've already sold it all

to harder hands

my dear

there's nothing left

for you

​

Feel        empty

Love       empty

Think     empty, I am empty

                all is empty

                food is empty

                you are empty

Think

 

I am Human

                  I must eat

                   sometimes

                   sometimes

                   too much

I am Human

                  scared, I

do not eat

                  until I break

                  and

Eat

                  is all that I can

Do

​

I am Woman

I am Human

I am God

I am Man

I am body

I am brain

I eat meat

I eat air

and

I pray and I pray and I pray

that someday

I will wake

and 

eat breakfast